Well I passed! I think?

Today I had a test. It was a tough one I had studied and practiced for a couple months. I think I passed. It all depends on which part of me you are asking.

I had to come face to face with two of the other woman. There are special gross circumstances when it comes to these two but I will leave the details out in case you are eating food.

I think I handled myself pretty well since I made a promise to not let them know I know and I cannot kill them. Believe me they will get theirs and they will get it good. It is all about timing with these two.

Do you know how hard it is to keep my composure? Freaking impossible, but I still managed to do it. This is a skill someone who has been through trauma has mastered. We can keep a cool composure at the same time be falling apart inside.

All I know is I am not the only one who has to come face to face with the other woman and not kill them. It is a tough situation and I do not wish it on anyone in the whole world.

Keep battling friends.

Discovery Day (D-Day) a different kind of anniversary date.

Discovery Day is the very first day that you discover your partner has been cheating on you.  This day will forever be ingrained in your memory.  You will count the years you have made it from this day.  At first you will count the days, then the weeks, then the months.  For the first 2 years you can give someone the exact amount of time from this day; days, weeks and months.  An anniversary that you will always acknowledge and dread or if you are lucky you may be able to pretend and pass over this day with no huge fuss.

Very similar to when you first heard about the 9-11 World Trade Center’s crashing down. Or when you first learned of a close loved one passing.  In my case the memory of D-Day is stronger than 9-11 and a family member passing. You will never forget the weather on this day, the smells in the air, what you were doing, and you will remember exactly where you were, and who you were with. You will always remember a life before this day and reminisce on how it used to be, most of the time shedding tears because all you want to do is go back. Your whole world is flipped upside down on D-Day.  You will never be the same person again. Your heart shatters into a million pieces and you will forever be picking them up and putting them together.  For the first year (sometimes longer) you will wake up everyday and it will feel exactly like you are just learning of a loved one’s sudden unexpected death.  As time goes on, it does get easier but is always there like a dark cloud over your head about to strike you with a bolt of lightening reminding you of your loss. Those bolts are the triggers that you will experience repeatedly for an indefinite amount of time.  Click here to read more about triggers.

If you are lucky you will never experience a day like this or never have to go through it again.  In my case I have 2 D-Days and so do many other infidelity survivors too.  We survivors are some of the strongest and loving people living on Earth.

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