I am as honest as they come, probably to an extremely naive level. Up until recently I assumed most people were like me. I believed most adults did not lie, cheat or steal. Dumb right? I swore that those behaviors were mostly done when we were teenagers. I have never intentionally surrounded myself with people who are liars, cheaters and thieves. I am getting close to turning 40 and just now realizing how much people are trash. Most people are rotten little poops and many other things, but I am trying to keep this post g rated. Thankfully I know I am not alone in being an honest faithful person. I have found many who are like me. There are still good people out there. You may have to search far and wide, but they are out there. We are just a rare gem in a trash filled world.
What is really starting to bother me is when these trashy people with their low morals and standards get mad at you for speaking the truth. If you don’t like the truth, you should have thought about your actions before you made the conscious decisions you made. If you are a hooker, then you are a hooker. If you are a homewrecker then you are a homewrecker. If you are a cheater then you are a cheater. I call it like it is. This is my nature. Just like your nature is to be a liar, cheater and thief. I speak the truth and will not apologize for it. However, I do not go out of my way to speak the truth, although it can be very tempting. I could demolish so many lives with all the truths I keep under my tongue, but if you rub me wrong, I will SPEAK THE TRUTH and you have no right or place to get upset about it. That’s it! End of story!
These people will also assume you are just like them. Just because they do something, they believe
everyone else does too. They will go to
the ends of the earth to prove it too.
In some cases, they will make their information up just so they can
continue to believe everyone acts the same as them. I am seeing this filth
becoming more prominent. If you happen
to be one of these filthy beings, STOP NOW.
You are ruining the planet and humanity with all the dirty toxins you
To all my fellow gems out there who are still honest and
faithful, do not let these meager little bodies change who you are. We are here to uplift them when they need us
because you know they are going to need an honest, faithful person to help them
feel better. It is the way the universe
works. The good and the bad. The yin and
the yang. Stay good my fellow honest and faithful friends.
One of the most difficult symptoms of betrayal P.T.S.D. and trauma are the triggers. Triggers can be physical or mental and can wreck havoc on your health. For a long time I had difficulty explaining what it was like having triggers day-in and day-out. Below is the best way I could describe it.
You can start by imagining yourself as a small lake, the beautiful sandy shores are the barrier you built to protect yourself. You have existed for a long time with nothing disturbing your waters and the shores, but the occasional wind and rain (kids, family, work, etc.) until the unexpected happened. A rare category 4 hurricane named Betrayal barreled through your waters and damaged your shoreline. Not only did Hurricane Betrayal spend a good amount of time breaking down your shores, it also broke down a rocky ledge 1000 ft above you. Within a day this ledge starts to crumble. The very first piece to fall from the ledge is a boulder the size of a Semi-Truck. This boulder disturbs your peace and safety over a period of a few days reminding you of the hurricane. The next boulder that falls into your water is the size of a pick-up truck. This boulder disturbs you for a day. The next boulder is the size of a compact car, you are disturbed a little less than the previous boulders but dislike how it reminds you of Hurricane Betrayal. You have these boulders sporadically crashing down for a few months. They vary in size. Every day you are unsure what type of rock is going to be falling into your water and what memories it will stir up. It could be any size at any given moment. This makes you worried, edgy, panicked, and nervous every minute of every single day. Every single pebble that comes down from that ledge reminds you of Hurricane Betrayal.
After 6 months of large boulders, rocks and pebbles disturbing your waters, you no longer identify as a lake, you are unsure what you are. You become highly sensitive to anything that touches your water or shoreline. The wind and rain (children, family, friends, finances, work) pick away at your shores little by little even if just a minuscule amount. Everything that touches your water leaves its mark on you. You are in constant fear of no longer being a lake, of a boulder completely crashing down into your water destroying all the shoreline you have left after Betrayal hit.
Years goes by, you are exposed to the wind and rain. The ledge letting boulders, rocks and pebbles go is something you accept being there. You are still a lake, like before. You have weathered through it all. You even made it through another hurricane. Some days you would have a boulder and tiny rocks land in your water. On other days the ledge would drop pebbles all day long. Gradually over time the ledge stopped dropping the boulders and only dropped pebbles and an occasional stone. Sometimes the stones would be significant and sometimes not. There was a week where you didn’t have anything fall into your water. The ledge you kept constant eye on no longer looks like a ledge. You can barely see where it was. You will always remember what that ledge looked like right after Hurricane Betrayal hit. You will not forget the damage Betrayal and that ledge did to you, but you might appreciate what it made you become.