I could not escape the anger until……

I wanted to do an update since my online presence this week was lacking.  Mostly because I am reminded of the saying “If you have nothing nice to say then you shouldn’t say it at all.” I had nothing nice all week. I was nothing but angry.  Angry at the skanks, homewreckers and whores.  Angry at my husband and angry with myself.  Thankfully we made it intact.  I don’t think I ever wanted to murder so many people.  I wanted to hunt down every skank whore in the city. It took everything in my power to keep myself calm.  I have never been this angry before, it is not like my character to be out of control with anger. I am very grateful it is over, and I will never have to repeat this week again.   

It was during my angel card reads yesterday I had a light bulb moment.  I had been wrestling with all the thoughts.  Am I doing the right thing by giving him another chance?  What if? What was? What is? Does he even care?  If you have ever been through betrayal you know exactly what I am talking about.  It is never ending ruthless questioning about everything.  This questioning going on in my head all week was what was making me angry.  The biggest question I kept asking myself was “Am I just making these decisions because it is coming from within or is it coming from outside of myself?”

The angel card I pulled was about making decisions from within and not from outside of yourself. Go figure!  Divine timing with the angel cards, again.   This little card immediately stopped all my anger.  This little card reminded me that I cannot make any rational decisions and I will never feel better unless I remove the negativity.  Removing the negativity doesn’t mean I don’t have the right to be downright pissed off, removing negativity is simply not letting myself think that everything is negative.  My future is not negative.  Of course, there is going to be crappy things, it’s life.  But there is going to be so many more positive things. 

Once I removed all of my negative thoughts (most directed towards my future) I was able to think using my inner wisdom. My intuition took over and I just “knew” the decisions I have been making are the right ones. You can see much clearer without all the negative in the way.