I have learned a lot over the last 3 ½ years when it comes to what works when I am overwhelmed with triggers and heavy emotions. Some of the worse times for triggers are when I am doing household chores. A good example is when I do the dishes. I go on auto pilot when doing them and that is when the thoughts, triggers and emotions sneak in. All the everyday chores a Mom must do are the type of chores I would have the hardest time with all the thoughts coming up. At any given moment of any day you could catch me balling my eyes out, frozen from the hurt, paused in time, in the middle of doing a chore.
A little over a year and half ago during an appointment with my EMDR therapist I learned what to do when I was doing household chores to help process all the triggers I was having. At the time I was having a hard time at work. I was having to open boxes upon boxes of wood flooring. My therapist brought up using a cross body motion to slice the boxes open. The next day I sliced those boxes open with passion. After the relief I received from this I started to implement the same thing to all chores I did. After this second D-DayI am using this same therapy tool again.
The way to do this exercise is simple. When you are doing everyday household chores
turn them into a chore where you use your body in a left to right rhythm. This
is very similar to when Daniel in The Karate Kid does the “Wax on and wax off.”
If you are unable to do the whole-body rhythm use your left hand, then switch
to your right hand. A good example is when I vacuum, I push the vacuum with my
left arm and pull back with my right. When I do dishes, I make sure I am
passing the dish from one hand to the other. When cleaning counter tops I do
the same thing. I try to get the largest
left to right motion and keep at a good fast paced rhythm. I allow all the triggers
to come at me. I don’t try to control my thoughts or emotions. They tend to go
as fast as they come when I would normally go on a roller coaster ride with my
thoughts. As long as I keep a good pace, the thoughts are getting processed the
way my brain can handle it best and in turn keeping myself from suffering
anymore physical ailments.
This is a great way to process your thoughts and get them “filed away neatly” in your brain. I have noticed while going through this second recovery round I am having an easier time processing my triggers and find myself naturally doing the exercises and tools I learned from before. When you practice all the different at home therapy exercises and tools you develop a second nature to processing your triggers that can provide some relief.
I have witnessed some horrible human behavior throughout my life. But this last episode of “Come On! Are you that stupid?” has got me thinking “Is every homewrecker really that dumb?” I have heard horror stories but this last one takes the trophy for the dumbest I have dealt with. I am appalled that this woman even thinks she has a leg to stand on.
I have never met her, never talked to her. I had seen her at
a large motorcycle camping party, where she avoided me and now, I know why. I only messaged her a few times via social
media prior to my knowing she had sex with my husband and multiple other
married men along with a few brothers from my husband’s club. This lady is a
serial homewrecker. She is known in the little motorcycle community of my town
as the slut, a massage therapist with a happy ending among many other
things. There is not a single man on
this earth who would be stupid enough to settle down with her. She reeks rotting twat. Woman like this
sicken me as they have no regard for humans at all.
I used to feel bad for people like this and would make
excuses for their behavior, but I am out of excuses and I am tired of being an
innocent victim of their immoral behavior.
It is appalling a person like this would make up lies about the
betrayed. You already did a huge amount
of damage. Enough already!
There is one main reason I needed to write this rant out
being you are called a home wrecker, you screwed up a home and marriage by being one of
the “other woman” there is no need for you to lash out at the betrayed for
calling you out on what you clearly are.
If you don’t like the truth, then F off!
You should have learned to think before you act a long time ago, you are
a grown adult. You should never open
your mouth or even worse put it in writing for all to see you harassing the
betrayed with lies and stories when you haven’t even met the betrayed spouse or
heard their side of the story.
I do not do my blog, website, and social media accounts for
attention. I have NEVER liked attention,
if you need confirmation maybe you should talk to the “brothers”. I am a person who helps others. That is my
life mission. I am taking something that
makes me unable to live a normal life and turning it around to help others who
are going through the same thing. The accusations from an uneducated dumb whore
will not be tolerated by myself or my tribe.
The amount and extent of the pain a betrayed spouse goes
through is something unimaginable until you have been through it. Studies show that PTSD from betrayal trauma
is one of the hardest things to suffer from mentally. It takes years to recover and you will never
be the same. To be a person who wants
more pain on the betrayed makes you a special kind of evil. I will enjoy watching karma do its magic.
To all my fellow survivors. You should never let one of the
other women dictate anything. Thankfully in my case it was a calculative move
that worked, and she buried herself (love it when this happens.) Stand strong and tall fellow survivors! You are and always will be the better person!
Today I was reading an article about marriage and love/sex addiction on http://www.pschycology.com Several times throughout the article it mentioned the word commitment. Stating that both parties in a relationship need to be fully committed and even more important when infidelity is involved.
All our life we hear this word. Commit to school, commit to your job, commit to your paper, etc. We are always asked for our commitment. Ever since I first found out my Husband cheated, my whole world turned upside down and has never been the same since. Same with the word commitment being used for marriage. Commitment will never mean the same thing to me, especially after this recent D-Day.
Yeah sure I can give it my commitment. He can say he is committed but it doesn’t mean diddly shit. I have always gave it my all and I always will. But in all reality commitment is a one-way street. Using the word commitment for a marriage sounds like there is a mutual feeling. You have no idea if your partner is going to return the commitment even if they say they are. Of course, you are showing commitment. You know yourself. You never know others. I thought I knew my husband through and through. This is how betrayal hurts so much. We rely on someone else when we need to be relying on ourselves.
It all comes down to having a commitment to yourself and hope in turn your partner appreciates that, and you appreciate their commitment to themselves. This makes for two happy people in a relationship.